being a gypsy

i just discovered this photographer, iain mckell, via a friend's pinterest board.  and his the new gypsies series takes my breath away. i connect so deeply with this photograph...

copyright iain mckell

what is it?  the fact that i feel the image is so soulful?  or maybe that i i think, this could have been a photo of me...IF i grew up as a gypsy.  and i wonder, is it as fabulous as i think it might be...growing up as a gypsy?  living the gypsy life? there's a part of me that so longs to throw all our shit away and just be gypsies.  just be free.  to be.

i'm in a bit of a funk right now.  it happens from time to time.  and with that said and the busy craziness of fall approaching, i thought it was a perfect time to get this powerful and motivational video recirculating.

another mini-workshop | aug 8th - 21st

i'm super excited to share that i'll be holding a SECOND online breaking the mold mini-workshop via the bloom forum -- august 8th - 21st.  this workshop is for bloom forum members only -- so if you're interested in registering for this workshop, the first step is to become a bloom forum member. workshop registration now open!! please refer to details below on how to register.

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i am so, so grateful for another opportunity to teach and share. i can't wait!!

this is what a few of the previous workshop participants had to say about my breaking the mold workhsop...

I can't thank you enough for your amazing workshop. It went above and beyond anything I had ever expected. I came into the workshop hoping to learn more about photography, I never dreamed of the personal journey it would take me on or the growth I would have. I have come away appreciating my vision as an artist and not worrying about others. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being so open and honest. I have grown leaps and bounds and look forward to continuing to grow even more. - Stephanie

i'm so sad that our workshop is over, but i just wanted to take a minute to send you a quick note. this was the very first workshop i have ever taken, i had no real expectations. i can tell you that the last three weeks were unlike anything i thought i would experience in a photography workshop... it was almost like therapy for me, really!  i am self taught, and have struggled with the mentality that i'm not up to par because i don't have the piece of paper to prove that i deserve to be here. i finally think i'm starting to see that i don't need to be technically perfect to be great at what i do. really, i could ramble on forever but i really just wanted to say thank you! thank you for helping me believe in myself, for bringing so much passion and inspiration to me in a short time and thank you for taking the time to teach us all and for being you!! i have never really surrounded myself with a group of my peers, it's been an amazing ride. - lila

I am sad that our time has come to an end in your new workshop 'Breaking the Mold'. I have enjoyed it immensely.

We so often second-guess our instincts and I have learned lately that mine are very loud and rarely go away. It is funny too, I don't often shy away from it, unless there is fear involved - fear of rejection, fear of not being validated, fear of moving forward, fear of dwelling too much on the past, fear of trying something new, fear of the competition. Your workshop has not only validated me, my strengths, my weaknesses, but it also brought my journey to a whole other level. I hope that I will continue to adapt and transform and ask myself all the questions you asked of us in your workshop. It was fast moving, made me reflect and helped me see things way more clearly. That is a gift.

There are very few people in my life who have truly given me inspiration, made me want to move forward and try something new. But you sure have! You have allowed me to let loose and share in a comfortable and giving environment. You were warm, generous and giving!!! I so appreciated all your candor. In our short two weeks, you have definitely given me confidence, helped me make sense of the issues and doubts I have been feeling for awhile and made me want to be a better me, for my clients and for my family and friends. Everyone needs that someone to get you "unstuck". Your words, your exercises for us, and your explanation of your own photography has heightened my love and passion for photography so much more than I ever thought possible. - Sara

ETA | THE DETAILS: 1. This workshop is for forum members only therefore you must be a member of the forum to take the workshop. If not already a member, click the above bloom logo and click JOIN to sign up. Once a member, you can sign up within the bloom forum, under the 'Mini Workshops Information' section. 2. The workshop will run from Monday, August 8th – Monday, August 21st. 3. active seat | $200.00 4. silent (read-along) seat | $150 5. Registration is NOW OPEN inside the forum!

maui | part II

yesterday was spent in west maui.  lots of hiking and driving, which in an open-top jeep is awesome at first but by hour seven, you can barely feel your face and even with SPF 45 (applied multiple times), you are sunburnt.  but really, who's complaining. our first stop was julia's shack, where we bought banana bread, taro chips and coconut candy.  all of which are so darn good (i can't stop eating the coconut candy).  then we came across this sign, which i yelled, "wait. stop.  back up.  i need a picture of that sign.".  driving through a certain part of west maui, there are a lot of one lane roads, which again totally scared the crap out of me.  you'll be driving, turn a corner and there, directly in front of you is a car, going in the opposite direction.  no way to go for one of the cars, except backwards, because if you pull over to the side, you'll be rolling down the mountain cliff.

anyways... i just had to get a picture of this sign.  steve and i never had a honeymoon.  we were instant family.  then separated for six months because of the AF-navy thing.  once together, we had a baby (skyler) a month later.  nine months after that, i was pregnant again and steve deployed, returning a couple weeks before ryder was born.  so, we talk about how this trip to hawaii is our 8-year honeymoon.  and yes...falling in love (all over again) rocks.  i'll definitely be printing and framing this photo for our house.

we also came across this cross along the way, in this open field along the ocean's edge.  the area wasn't really accessible.  such an incredible sight.  sadly, i don't think photos do this area justice.

hike 1 | iao needle (hawaiian god of the ocean):  a beautiful area but pretty touristy.  amazing history though.  we went hiking (off the paved path) for quite a ways, but not knowing where the trail went or how long it was, we eventually decided to turn around, making the hike beautiful but pretty anti-climactic.  i think the coolest part of the hike was seeing some of the local kids having a blast, swimming in the stream.

hike 2 | the ovilene pools:  so cool!!  we hiked down a small-ish, rocky mountain to get there.  there's these pools of water there.  one of them being deep enough to swim in, which we did.  there was a dad and his son there.  the boy was snorkeling and his dad fishing.  the dad had interesting stories to share about the pools (one of them being a story about a man, who was severely injured when a massive wave barreled him over, resulting in a mangled body and multiple broken bones).  but the place was absolutely amazing.  i wish i had my underwater camera there but it's just too big to hike with (especially down a mountain of lava boulders).  you can see the boy and his dad in the photo below.  the swimming pool is the one directly to the right of them.

hike 3 | nakalele blowhole:  another pretty spectacular site.  and another pretty good hike down a small-ish mountain.  there's a few signs along the way about the dangers of the blowhole and how dave potts got sucked in and lost his life. and OMG...little did i know (until i just googled it right now) that the incident just happened...about a week ago.  how sad and how terrible!!

and if you walked just a bit from the blowhole and turned the corner, there was this heart formation in the rocks.  we initially thought someone had to carve the hole, but looking at it, it didn't look that way.

after our visit to the blowhole, wind and sun burnt, we decided to head home.  tonight, i am so looking forward to a family session on west maui.

note to self:  next trip to hawaii, bring and wear hiking / water shoes.  the converse / barefoot thing is doable, but not always easy.

maui | part I

we arrived in maui TUESDAY afternoon.  photo session that evening.  and dinner with awesome (new) friends, who were visiting maui, from denver.  lucky for me, i get to see them again next week, while in CO for the NAPCP retreat that leah and i are speaking at.

WEDNESDAY was an admin type of day, for most of the day.  that afternoon, once everything was done, we drove out to this interesting area on the SW edge of the island, where in 1790 the lava exploded, after hitting the ocean. the phenomenon created this area looks like freshly tilled dirt except it is actually rock hard lava.  the trail we had been hoping to walk was closed; however, we did find another awesome trail that walked along the ocean's edge. there, we saw two wild goats that were standing on a lava rock cliff that jutted out into the ocean. from this land of broken-up lava rock to the random goats, it was all a bit surreal.

THURSDAY: we got up at 3 AM and drove to the top of haleakala (a 10,000 foot mountain) to view the most amazing (yet painfully windy and cold) sunrise ever. the entire horizon was clouds and as the sun rose, the clouds lit up like the filament of a lightbulb.  there was also a few locals, who sang a beautiful ceremonial chant.  truly a breathtaking moment to witness, but i have to say...i don't think i have ever been so cold.  we went home, took a nap and chilled most of the afternoon.

after dinner, we went snorkeling at a nearby area, where i almost drowned and was attacked by a shark (i mean a rock).  it really was quite comical.  but we did see a couple sea turtles, which was awesome.  steve got this photo (i could barely handle myself, let alone a huge camera).

YESTERDAY: we followed the road to hana (north side of the island).  along the way, we stopped to do various hikes.  each...absolutely majestic!!

hike 1 | puohokamoa falls:  this hike was pretty tough because we took it further than most do.  the falls were far away, but so beautiful.

hike 2 | punalau falls:  this was probably our favorite spot of the day.  we hiked through this dry stream of boulders, which ended in this pool of water.  the falls weren't much yet still amazing.  it was our own private waterfall and pool.

hike 3 | three bears falls:  pretty easy, short hike (all except the first few steps), leading to three incredible side-by-side falls.  there were quite a few people at these falls because they're easily seen from the road.

hike 4 | pua'a ka'a state park:  a super muddy hike.  towards the end, you have to walk along and across this viaduct on a platform that is about 1-1/2 feet wide.  as long as i didn't look down, i was just fine.

on our way out of hana, we stopped at red sands beach (wish i took a picture, but i was drained by this time).  the hike there scared the shit out of me because it was on the edge of the cliff and i had no traction on the dirt / sand (thanks to the chucks i was wearing).  we also stopped at hamoa beach, where steve did some bodysurfing.  by this time, i was really exhausted and simply enjoyed relaxing on the beach, while steve bodysurfed.

after hamoa beach, we continued driving south, which also scared the shit out of me -- super windy, narrow roads (most could not fit two cards side-by-side, without going up on the edge of the mountain side a bit).  also, most of the road was dirt and super bumpy.  i don't get car sick and towards the end, i did think about it.

all in all, the day was beyond spectacular, starting out at 7:30 AM and arriving in paia at 7:30 PM, for an incredible dinner of flatbread and salad (everything local, fresh and organic).  oh yea -- the cucumber, mint gin and tonic was pretty darn awesome too.  will definitely make that when back home.

today, we head to the west side, for more hiking and exploring.

upcoming travel

here we go...i'm off and running.

flying. really. departing early morning tomorrow, traveling the rest of the month. i've always longed to travel. love that we move every few years. so while things are busy and a bit crazy, i'm super excited about my upcoming travels. and really... who wouldn't be excited about NINE DAYS in MAUI!

there are still sessions available in the following locations this month:

MAUI -- july 13-20 DENVER -- july 22-24

i also am looking for some older kids, to do some underwater photography, while in maui: ages 6 and older must be comfortable in the water must be willing to sign a model release complimentary session all edited images available for purchase

sessions are also still available for my september travels:

SAN DIEGO -- september 5-7 NYC -- september 9-11 CHICAGO -- september 16-19

and i'm thinking of heading to the NEW ENGLAND area september 12-14.

please email, if interested in a session at any of the above locations.

strong and paranoid

vivian maier. the pre-production trailer is out -- a teaser of what is to come. and i so fricken can't wait till this documentary.

Trailer: Finding Vivian Maier from John Maloof on Vimeo.

she's a riddle. you don't know what is really behind everything. - maren baylaender

i love that. i can't wait to hear and learn more about her.  gives me chills to think about what she would think about all of this, if she was still alive.

being content

katelyn had contacted me a while back about doing photos of she and her husband. and then she saw i was coming to utah.  so she packed up for the weekend, did the six-hour drive, from colorado to utah, and met me there. katelyn's husband couldn't get away but i was able to photograph the beautiful katelyn. my hope was that i could show her in photographs the beauty, strength and peace that we all see in her in person.

and today, i received this beautiful note from katelyn...

I am writing you with tears of happiness and hope streaming down my face. I find myself sneaking looks at my computer throughout the day just to look at the incredible images you captured of me in Utah. It almost feels as if I am looking at someone who is not me- ALMOST. The person in these images looks so at peace... and strong. Two words I never thought could describe be.

For a large chunk of my life I was so concerned with what other people thought about me that I didn't think of myself and the actions I took were based on what I thought others would approve of. I felt I needed to look/dress/act/think a certain way in order to be liked. In trying to be like everyone else and fit this societal mold- I lost myself.

I've always had this idea of who I was but I was too afraid to let it show. It has only been within this last year that I have begun to figure out who I really am. In the past few months I have done so many of the things I've always wanted to do and I'm finally becoming Katelyn. I am on this beautiful journey toward being comfortable in my own skin and knowing that I am enough.

This is such a momentous time in my life and I'm so excited to have “proof” that I am content with being me.

I feel like there is no expression of gratitude that could even come close to letting you know how truly grateful I am for these images. Thank you for helping me to let go of fear and thank you, a thousand times over, for making me beautiful in my own eyes.

my wish is that every woman can make this peace with themselves. to see their own beauty and strength. to be content in their own skin...with who they are and all they have to offer. and always remember that each one of us is absolutely... beautiful and special and unique!

the entire weekend in utah was incredible. and powerful.  the land is absolutely majestic. the company was oh-so-inspiring. and hilarious (i haven't laughed as hard as i did that weekend, in a really long time). thank you girls for a magical weekend!! can't wait till the next time.

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have you seen?

i think pretty much everyone has now heard of vivian maier.  but have you seen the new vivian maier site?  i swear i could look at her work all day.  and night.  it's mind blowing how talented she was.  and even more mind blowing how she shot for nothing more than herself and her love for shooting.  goodness...her eye. her composition. her timing. so much talent!!

i really would love to own any one of her prints but here's a few of my favorites from her new site.

i've seen this one before, but man, i love it so much!!

and this self portrait.  OMG!!!

i can't wait to get her book and watch her documentary (i donated to her project long ago on kickstarter and have both coming my way once they're done).  and one day...i will make it to one of her exhibitions.

i found a lump

a few weeks ago, i found a lump in my breast.  i ignored it for weeks, thinking i was imagining things. that i wouldn't feel it tomorrow.  but i always felt it.  over and over again, the pea-sized lump was present.  so finally, i made an appointment with the MD, to confirm what i already knew.  yep, the lump really was there.  she scheduled me for a mammogram.  i already had had one two years ago in san diego.  normal. so this past friday, i had my diagnostic mammogram and a bilateral ultrasound.  nothing abnormal was shown on mammogram. and i'm assuming that the ultrasound was normal because no additional tests were ordered.  i should know for sure in the coming days.

but the whole process stirred a flurry of thoughts and emotions.  most impacting was telling steve.  i think he was actually more worried than i was.

his mom was diagnosed with breast cancer at my age. she died six months later. steve was five. steve's dad was left with three children, one of them being hearing impaired.

i couldn't help but think about the possibility of breast cancer, no matter how much i tried not to...and believe me, i tried.

i share all this for a couple reasons...

as parents, we do such a great job at making sure our kids see doctors and get their appropriate check-ups, tests, immunizations, etc. but what about YOU?

especially in the case of a mammogram. seriously, pain free. 10 minutes. done. so simple. i've now had two and neither hurt one bit. so what, my boobs were squished. better than breast cancer, surgery, radiation and chemotherapy.

i had thought about blogging about my lump. and my mammogram. and then i came across this photo on facebook and well, i knew i had to blog about it.

the scar project fricken blows my mind in amazing-ness. you can see the entire gallery of images here.

© david jay | the SCAR project

i love the SCAR project tag line -- surviving cancer. absolute reality. and i'm excited to see that he's now offering a book.  wishing the exhibition would go on tour.  although, i have no doubt that one day it will.

i hope you'll go make your necessary appointments.  you deserve it. your children deserve it.

being grateful

i love this womani am grateful for this woman and all she shares with us she reminds me what it means to be good and grateful and not-so-serious in this crazy, mixed up world of ours

while in kansas, i started a grateful 365 project. to be completely honest, something went off course and i never finished. and then we moved. and then i was sent really off course. but seeing hailey's video has me longing to start another one. although i'm taking the daily pressure off and simply calling it my 'grateful project'. can't wait to see what comes of it.

how can anyone ever go wrong with a project that reminds them of all they have to be grateful for...each and every day.

hope you enjoy the video...

please don't forget to check out their 365 grateful site -- 365grateful.com

last but not least, here's a few photos from my 2010 (iphone) grateful project...

portraits

such an interesting article, from 2008, on conscientious regarding what makes a great portrait? is it...

an intangible element luck and patience the graphic elements, framing, lines and light what is said about the image maker what is said about the subject images that make a statement vulnerability and awkwardness a feeling and reaction an insight into an inner universe an element of surprise insightful and engaging a meaningful connection an emotional exchange tension in the moment infused with believability mutual trust a raw and honest exchange the capturing of a state of grace something that rarely happens an unanswerable question

these were some of the thoughts (of photographers, bloggers, curators, editors and gallerists) shared on conscientious.

the article has me thinking (a lot) about the portraits i've taken. what i love. what i don't love. what i've been doing. what i haven't been doing. where i hope to go. it also has me thinking about how much growing i have yet to do. i try and remind myself often that it's only been six years and i still have so much to learn, expand upon and explore. and patience...i must simply have patience. and continue to study and work hard.

after i read the article, i spent some time with my accessible work | portraits.  here are some portraits i've taken over the past few years that strongly speak to me for one reason or another...

so, what do YOU think makes a great portrait?

i hope you'll not only take the time to read the article, but also sit with your own work and thoughts for a while.

who's bill cunningham?

saw this on cup of jo today.  there's a new documentary coming out (march 16th) about bill cunningham.  so who's bill cunningham? this is bill cunningham!  maybe you knew who he was, but i had no idea. and now...after watching the trailer, i absolutely can't wait to watch his documentary.  i wish we had more bill cunninghams in this world.  he seems pretty darn fabulous.

and darn it. these cool films never come to tampa. click here to see if the film is coming to a city near you.

although the site does say...

If you do not see your town listed please urge friends and family to request the film at your local arthouse venue. Arthouse theater owners/managers really like to know that their local audience is interested in a particular film. Theater managers can contact our theatrical booker Clemence Taillandier at clemence@zeitgeistfilms.com and we can work out a date to open the film.

maybe there's a chance.

life through a lens

i'm a photographer. and this is my work. some of it is this. and some of it is this. really great photographers can't stop taking pictures. they do it like other people eat and breathe. her whole life is her subject.

two quotes i loved from the video below.

annie leibovitz intrigues and fascinates me on so many levels.  i'm so grateful to have attended her exhibition in san diego a few years ago.

i just put the annie leibovitz: life through a lens documentary in my netflix queue. not sure how i missed that it back in 2008. and i think i'll sit with her a photographer's life 1990-2005 book this afternoon, while the kids are doing gymnastics.  i guess it's just an annie leibovitz inspiration kind of day.

sadly, i just don't sit with my photography books enough these days.

life support japan

such an amazing endeavor is taking place right now... crista dix, from wall space gallery, recently launched life support japan -- where photographers from around the world have donated prints (no larger than 8.5 x 11, edition of 10) for (set-price) auction.

these prints can be purchased online at wall space gallery for $50 each!!

direct relief international (for medical) and habitat for humanity (for rebuilding) are the organizations that will benefit from the life support japan print sales. the goal is 100% donation (as long as they can get donation of shipping supplies and  financial help towards shipping costs).  so far, the auction has raised $10,000...in two days!!

it's incredible the number of photographers, who have stepped forward and donated. new photographs are being added daily, so if you don't see an image you love and want to purchase, please keep checking back.

seriously...such an awesome opportunity to purchase a some art, while also helping the relief efforts in japan. and a special thanks to aline smithson for all her hard work and coordination efforts.

i've offered this 8x8 print for auction...

copyright deb schwedhelm photography | one

ETA: i just read this article.  and the pictures. OMG...my heart aches for the people of japan.

and a recent note from crista dix:

Life Support Japan + online print sale benefit information. Natural disasters happen all the time, like landslides, floods, earthquakes. We live on a planet that isn't static. Friday, March 11th, we witnessed a natural disaster with a very human toll. The earthquake in Japan was of such magnitude that even the most prepared nation in the world to handle a disaster of this type was overwhelmed. It wasn't the earthquake alone, which was devastating enough but watching a 30 foot high wall of mud and debris wipe entire communities away was beyond any ability I personally had to comprehend.

I had to do something. Aline Smithson, one of our gallery artists wanted to do something too. Ryan Nabulsi and Jennifer Schwartz joined the effort. Soon I was hearing from every part of our creative community that we wanted to reach out to help the people of Japan. Life Support Japan was created to bring assistance to those in Japan who need it.

We have selected two charities to benefit from the sales of these limited edition prints.

Direct Relief International, for help with medical supplies. Direct Relief works closely with the United Nations (U.N.) Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Assistance (OCHA), which has activated to assemble the international response. Direct Relief has mobilized and staged materials at our headquarters, which are standing by ready for airlift to Japan.

Habitat for Humanity Japan, to help in the rebuilding of communities in and around Sendai and northern Japan.

Artists from around the globe have donated limited editions, over 300 to date, and we will be consistently updating the images available.

Galleries from around the US are banding together for a series of benefits, for these two and other charities to benefit relief efforts in Japan. We will be posting information as it becomes available.

Thank you for your support and for being part of a global community.

Crista Dix + wall space gallery.

this new place

...a different place. i remember when i left san diego...i wondered where my photography would go in kansas. i thought,

how can i shoot without my beloved PB pier. without my beach.

yet kansas was probably the best thing to ever happen to me (as a photographer). i could play without pressure. a year where i didn't worry about  shooting clients.  i just allowed myself to be. and shoot. and grow.

and now i find myself in this place called tampa. a place where i long for my business to resume. a place i long to connect with. i'm getting there. i am...

when i look at this photo, i can't wait to get back out there and explore these incredible tampa beaches with my camera. this journey has only just begun. and that in itself is something magical to embrace.

and this photo will forever remind me that things will be okay here in tampa.

just as this photo will forever hold a special place in my heart, from our time in kansas.

different, yet the same. i am truly blessed to be able to move around and experience these awesome, different places with my family.  each is unique. each is special.

could you imagine?

could you imagine... 30 days on the road camera, notebook, map no directions getting lost radio truckstop, coffee and apple pie sunset at big sur motel 6 austin tulsa 30 images a project for levi's

well, this guy could. because he did!!

how fricken awesome is that?!  i wish. a dream assignment, for sure! maybe someday!! for now, i'll keep wishing hoping, believing and...working hard. dreaming of an opportunity like this.

yep, this guy...

© anthony georgis. he did it.

maybe someday i'll just have to create my own 30 days of getting lost assignment.  although anyone who knows me knows that it wouldn't take long for me to be completely lost, if i didn't have my GPS telling me where to go.

hmmm...has me thinking.

surround yourself

friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.- author unknown

i feel so blessed to be surrounded by such amazing, inspiring, encouraging, supportive people.  the kind of people who i can openly share with, get me thinking and keep me on my toes.  today, i messaged with a friend for hours. this was a bit of our conversation...

...how did i get here. how am i living my dream. how are people buying my vision? how am i an artist-- exactly as i wanted to be... and having done nothing to be that. how long can i keep this up? how the fuck do i do this seriously and be serious about it, without it eating me up and shrinking me away. how do i deal with the anxiety of not being able to say no, and always feeling the stress of fear of disappointing people.

learning. each and every time. amazing people surrounding me. amazing clients...

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how do i deal with the anxiety of...can i keep producing? what happens if the magic just stops happening? if it stops coming my way? because clearly this is all magic? because it just happened. i mean i had to work hard but how did i end up here? it was just a dream. but now it's here and i don't want to wake up. how far will this take me? is it to a place that's even bigger than i ever dreamt?

no matter what though, i will embrace each and every opportunity that comes my way. i will never forget to be grateful. i will never forget to give back.

because in the end, this is a dream come true...something i will never take it for granted. i am truly and deeply blessed in so many ways and this wouldn't be possible without my family. yes...grateful and blessed!!

learning...always. growing. believing. facing fears. moving forward. loving those who surround me and encourage me. amazing. amazing journey for sure!!

i can't even begin to tell you how much her conversation meant to me today. how much i cherish each and every conversation with my friends.

we all have a choice of who surround us.  i hope you choose to be surrounded by those who inspire, support and encourage you. because when you surround yourself with authentic, honest friendships, it's a truly, truly beautiful...and powerful thing!!

photo from when i first began studying photography (early 2006).  kiele and her best friend, natalie.  it's probably the toughest thing about being a military family...having to watch your children say good-bye to their best friend(s) over and over again.  however, i'm so grateful for phone, email, facebook, skype, etc., which allows them to easily keep in touch. hoping kiele and nat will see each other again soon.

success & great pictures

such a great series hosted by colin pantall that really gets you thinking!!  or at least it should. what is success? | part I

what is success? | part II

what makes a great picture?

it's interesting to read all the different thoughts on how one defines success.  while the definitions vary, a common thread amongst many (if not most) is that 'what is success?' is a difficult question, but not a stupid question at all.  personally, i believe it's a question we all should sit and explore and do our best to answer for ourselves.

here's a few comments, from colin pantall's blog, that i fell in love with...

Success for myself is not just about doing good, professional work.For lack of a better word, there's an element of magic. An innocuous detail that pushes the image into another level. When we're lucky, when we trust our instincts, we're hit with an electric charge. Does this last? Oftentimes it doesn't. When the initial burst of clamor fades, but there's still magic in it, people still respond, you still feel something when you see it. That to me is success. - maciek jasik

If people can connect with my pictures and enjoy them that is enough for me. It’s like you are walking down the street and you smile at someone and they smile back. There is nothing given and nothing taken. It is just like a little nudge, a recognition of humanity and life. That is what photography means to me. It is my profession, it is my religion, it is my karma, it is my life. - raghu rai

the camera the kids made for me for mother's day a couple years ago, taken a few day s before we left kansas.

ETA:  just came across this photo and couldn't help but laugh...puppies make great pictures too :-))

beyond the assignment | forever seven

max mikulak...

forever seven.

this morning, i received an email from jason houston that max's series, forever seven, has been published in issue 3 of fraction J magazine. and i couldn't have dreamed of a more perfect theme to have max's photographs be a part of -- beyond the assignment.

For this issue of Fraction J we were looking for projects with several specific traits. The work, first had to be journalistic, at least in the sense that it was a reaction made in real time to real events and a subject's story truthfully told. But the more important distinction was that the photographer stuck with the work, not from any attempt to create something sellable for some specific market, but because it meant something to them—and where. The photography also has to be a functional element of the concerned involvement, but not the reason for it. In the end it was very difficult to draw these lines and find that balance, especially when it came to the personal documentary projects, many of which were reflecting on external situations. But in the end, the portfolios we ended up with span an appropriately broad and inspiring range of responses.

i hope you'll take a look.

thank you fraction J for this incredible opportunity to share. i am so, so grateful!!

a polaroid a day

another amazing (and sad) project -- photo of the day.  the project is by jamie livingston, a man who took a polaroid a day, for eighteen years...until the day he died, on his 41st birthday. i find it absolutely incredible how his life's story is captured through one photograph a day.  and again, how he was completed committed to this (very) long-term project.  not a day missed, even when he was too sick to take a picture himself.

The photographer’s name was Jamie Livingston. He was a film maker and editor who worked on public information films, adverts and promo videos for MTV. Taking a single photo every day began by accident when he was 22 and studying film with Crawford at Bart College, in upstate New York. “He’d been doing it for about a month before he realised he’d been taking a photo about one picture a day, and then he made the commitment to keep doing that,” says Crawford. “That’s what he was like. There are some people who have flashes of brilliance and do things in a huge rush or creative burst but he was more of a steady, keep-at-it kind of guy and he did amazing stuff. Part of the appeal of the site is that Jamie was not this amazing-looking guy. He led an incredible life, but there’s an every man quality to the photographs.” - only the blog knows brooklyn

jamie livingston's first polaroid | march 31st 1979

and his last | october 25th 1997

an awesome summary of the project can be found here

a more detailed description of jamie livingston's project can be found here

and you can see all the polaroids, over the 18 years, here on this site

really has me thinking... yet again.

ETA:  erin just commented this:

what gets me the most-- is that all of these things coming out is helping people right now to realise that we are part of history too. that our lives are all crushingly beautiful, painful, normal it painfully shows us reality, depth, and the art of life and the everyday. it makes you take a closer look at what you are leaving behind.. what story do i want to tell?

and she's so dead on!!

WHAT STORY DO I WANT TO TELL?

what stories am i telling right now? especially as a professional photographer, who sadly struggles to capture my own story...openly, freely and honestly.

can't help but think that the universe is screaming at me right now.  and i am listening.